My Name Is Not Emo

Are you happy today?




Sometimes we enjoy life so much that we really forgot about things that matters to us most... So are you really happy today?

When you love someone, let them know... You never know what will happen the next minute.... Learn to build a life together.. Learn to love each other. For who they are.. Not what they are...

From Email...


One fine day, an old couple around the age of 70, walks into a lawyer's office...



Apparently, they are there to file a divorce. Lawyer was very puzzled, after having a chat with them, he got their story....

This couple had been quarreling all their 40 over yrs of marriage nothing ever seems to go right.They hang on because of their children, afraid that it might affect their up-bringing. Now, all their children have already grown up, have their own family, there's nothing else the old couple have to worry about, all they wanted is to lead their own life free from all these years of unhappiness from their marriage, so both agree on a divorce....

Lawyer was having a hard time trying to get the papers done, because he felt that after 40 yrs of marriage at the age of 70, he couldn't understand why the old couple would still want a divorce..

While they were signing the papers, the wife told the husband....

"I really love u, but I really cant carry on anymore, I'm sorry. I really do not want to be with you anymore. I do not want to lie to you as my feelings to you is no longer there... I know you tried really hard to sustain this relationship but it's my decision.... "

"Its okay, I understand... " said the husband. Looking at this, the lawyer suggested a dinner together, just 3 of them, wife thought, why not, since they are still gonna be friends....

At the dining table, there was a silence of awkwardness.

The first dish was roasted chicken, immediately, the old man took the drumstick for the old lady...."Take this, its your favorite...."

Looking at this, the lawyer thought maybe there's still a chance, but the wife was frowning when she answer...

"This is always the problem, you always think so highly of yourself, never thought about how I feel, don't you know that I hate drumsticks? Do you know in fact i love chicken wings the most?"


Little did she know that, over the years, the husband have been trying all ways to please her, little did she know that drumsticks was the husband's favorite. Little did he know that she never thought he understand her at all, little did he know that she hates drumsticks even though all he wants is the best for her...

That night, both of them couldn't sleep, toss and turn, toss and turn... After hours, the old man couldn't take it anymore, he knows that he still loves her, and he can't carry on life without her, he wants her back, he wants to tell her, he is sorry, he wanted to tell her "I love you".... He had so many words and stories to share with her...

He wanted to tell her how they will bring up their grand children, how they will live to see their grand children schooling and even wedding....

He wanted to tell her how they use to sing songs to each other whenever they are in need of each other courage and support...

He wanted to tell her how she always smile at his jokes and how the smile of hers make him even happier...

Most of all, he wanted to tell her that how deep and how much he could love her....

He picks up the phone, starting dialing her number.... ringing never stops... he never stop dialing....

He had so many things to share and to live with her despite their old age and yet those words never reached her......

On the other side, she was sad, she couldn't understand how come after all these years, he still doesn't understand her at all, she loves him a lot, but she just cant take it anymore....

Phone' s ringing, she refuses to answer knowing that its him... "Whats the point of talking now that its over... I have ask for it and now I wanna keep it this way, if not I will lose face... Since it's my decision, let me be the one that will regret over it... "

She thought... Still ringing... She have decided to pull out the cord... And switches her mobile phone to silent mode... Little did she remember, he have heart problems...

The next day, she received news that he had passed away... She rushed down to his apartment, saw his body, lying on the couch still holding on to the phone... He had a heart attack when he was still trying to get through her phone line....

As sad as she could be... She will have to clear his belongings... When she was looking through the drawers, she saw this insurance policy, dated from the day they got married, with the beneficiary being her... And together in those file, there was this note...

"To my dearest wife, by the time you're reading this, I'm sure I'm no longer around, I bought this policy for you, though the amount is only RM500k, I hope it will be able to help me continue my promise that I have made when we got married, I might not be around anymore, I want this amount of money to continue taking care of you, just like the way I will if I could have live longer. I want you to know I will always be around, by your side... I love you my dear"

Tears flowed like river......


"When you love someone, let them know... You never know what will happen the next minute.... Learn to build a life together.. Learn to love each other. For who they are.. Not what they are..."

To continue from last post...

I'll use my last breath saying i love you. I know dear you no longer have any feelings for me, but i still love you up till now and will continue in many days to come. Yes i am stubborn as a cow and dear you might say i'm just doing stupid things, but to me, the most stupid thing that i did was i did not love you deep enough...

Actually the above "love statement" was in fact an sms that i wrote on Valentines Day that never reached it's recipient or i think will never reach as a matter of fact, i sincerely no one will use it, it's for 1 person only and that's my dear ex ... sigh...

Come to think of it, love is strange in a way that i use to say it's a double sided blade, it can hurt and it can cut so deeply and at the same time, it gives you pleasure and a rush in adrenaline (no, i'm not a sadist). Don't you like the feeling that knowing that you have someone besides you? That person will stand beside you through all hardship and happiness? But at the same time don't you fear too that you might lose her/him in just an instant?

Today Mr Zhong told me something which struck my thought... In movies or novels, we often come across the phrase "to love someone is to ensure he/she obtain happiness no matter who he/she is with"..... think again, how true does he/she mean those words? Is it really from the bottom of the heart? Is it really how he/she felt? Will they swear wholeheartedly over the Holy Bible, Quran etc and say that's their true intention?

Human are possesive, and screw those that say they aren't, why bother getting married then? If human aren't possesive, where does jealousy comes from? Never mind on that, i think i'm getting further and further from my true intention of this post.

Well, this post is dedicated to someone which i love dearly.... Sigh... (again)

I still love you dearly, although i might say that "i wish you happiness in whatever and whoever you choose in the future" but the fact is I would rather be that person that shower you with love and happiness....

I don't mean what i say but there's nothing else i can say at this juncture. To recap from a conversation i had with a friend the other day, i'm like walking a road knowing ahead that there's a brick wall blocking my path. I will crash the wall painfully and yet stubbornly i continue walking....




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